Mayalaen

I picked up my cell phone with my right hand and it felt hot so I was like aww crap I wonder if my new charger cord is wonky and it’s causing my phone to get too hot while charging.

So I lean over the desk, transferring my phone to my left hand so I can mess with the cord, and as I’m doing that I realize the phone is room temperature in my left hand.

Phone not overheating.
Just stupid brain.

With the added stress of fixing the website, helping my mom with catching up on her work, and dealing with some other family stuff, my hallucinations are flaring a bit more than usual.

The one I’ve been getting the last three days is... not fun. Sometimes they’re fun, but this isn’t.

I helped clean out my mom’s “friend’s” apartment after she died in her chair. I put friend in quotation marks because she was a horrible person who just took advantage of my mom and treated EVERYONE like shit and did the whole Munchhausen thing, only the last time she did the Munchhausen thing she took it too far and nobody was around anymore to save her.

And because she was so awful and mean to everyone, nobody noticed she was dead until a week later when the neighbors complained about the television being on all day and all night.

I’m still not really sure why my mom thought it was our job to clean out the apartment, but the smell was horrible, and that smell is what I keep hallucinating the last couple days along with my van shivering as I drive it, my cell phone hopping a couple inches up and down every once in a while, and one little part of my clothing feeling cold/wet at random times.

It’s not bothering me beyond asking my dad to test drive the van and see if the shiver is a real thing that needs fixing (it wasn’t). I just know that if I’m not careful I’ll throw myself into a psychotic episode by stressing myself out.

But tonight is gummy night anyway, so I just gotta finish out the day and rest tonight :)