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Feb. 12th, 2021 05:10 pmThis isn’t like earth shattering or anything, but it’s something that’s bummed me out.
I was busy enough over the last year that every time I tried to do anything of any significance other than the shop system overhaul and I was doing, I messed them up. Badly.
Like when I decided it was a good idea to backup, relocate, and organize my pr0n. The pr0n that I’ve been gathering, editing, and organizing since I was 17 years old.
Including a special series of twelve hour-long videos that were only ever recorded on VHS, digitized by someone in a private by-invite-only B/D/S/M community I was a part of YEARS ago, and as far as I know it’s nowhere else on the net.
Partway through the process of backup/relocate/organize, I screwed up.
Badly.
But because I was so busy and my brain was so fried, I didn’t realize I’d screwed up until weeks later after I’d thrown out the external drives I’d erased (those could’ve been restored with special programs) and after I’d performed a Boot & Nuke (that REALLY wipes a hard drive) on my laptop and installed a fresh operating system, and cleaned my personal computer’s storage drive.
After I finished this massive undertaking, and after I let enough time go by that recovery programs wouldn’t work, I realized what I’d done.
I’ve been so busy I haven’t even watched much pr0on in the last year. I’ve got a few bookmarks for tube sites on my tablet and I use those when I’m so busy I can only be bothered to get off and fall asleep, but I would’ve noticed my missing pr0n had I not been so overwhelmed and overworked.
So like I said, it’s not the end of the world, but DAMN IT that’s YEARS of work, some of my favorite stuff EVER carefully curated and personally edited and cataloged and organized.
GONE
Like really really gone.
Because I did it while I was so busy I really shouldn’t have done anything big like that. Not while I was overhauling the shop’s online store and POS.
Once I figured out what I’d done, I kinda went into a depression. Not horrible, but like ugh. I haven’t bothered grabbing any new stuff or trying to find any of the old stuff that might be out there on the interwebs.
My libido had already taken a huge hit in the last year with the shop and taking care of my parents, and losing my pr0n collection damn near killed what was left of my libido not only because it was a loss but also because I feel really stupid about it.
I was busy enough over the last year that every time I tried to do anything of any significance other than the shop system overhaul and I was doing, I messed them up. Badly.
Like when I decided it was a good idea to backup, relocate, and organize my pr0n. The pr0n that I’ve been gathering, editing, and organizing since I was 17 years old.
Including a special series of twelve hour-long videos that were only ever recorded on VHS, digitized by someone in a private by-invite-only B/D/S/M community I was a part of YEARS ago, and as far as I know it’s nowhere else on the net.
Partway through the process of backup/relocate/organize, I screwed up.
Badly.
But because I was so busy and my brain was so fried, I didn’t realize I’d screwed up until weeks later after I’d thrown out the external drives I’d erased (those could’ve been restored with special programs) and after I’d performed a Boot & Nuke (that REALLY wipes a hard drive) on my laptop and installed a fresh operating system, and cleaned my personal computer’s storage drive.
After I finished this massive undertaking, and after I let enough time go by that recovery programs wouldn’t work, I realized what I’d done.
I’ve been so busy I haven’t even watched much pr0on in the last year. I’ve got a few bookmarks for tube sites on my tablet and I use those when I’m so busy I can only be bothered to get off and fall asleep, but I would’ve noticed my missing pr0n had I not been so overwhelmed and overworked.
So like I said, it’s not the end of the world, but DAMN IT that’s YEARS of work, some of my favorite stuff EVER carefully curated and personally edited and cataloged and organized.
GONE
Like really really gone.
Because I did it while I was so busy I really shouldn’t have done anything big like that. Not while I was overhauling the shop’s online store and POS.
Once I figured out what I’d done, I kinda went into a depression. Not horrible, but like ugh. I haven’t bothered grabbing any new stuff or trying to find any of the old stuff that might be out there on the interwebs.
My libido had already taken a huge hit in the last year with the shop and taking care of my parents, and losing my pr0n collection damn near killed what was left of my libido not only because it was a loss but also because I feel really stupid about it.