the king of half-assing things

My dad is the king of half-assing things.

And then he always expects praise for the half-assed thing.

Yesterday he decided he would help me out by picking up a huge order that came to our PO box. I didn’t ask him to, but he did it anyway.

It was ink. $5000 of it.

Which he then left in his vehicle all day (including over an hour at a restaurant where there’s a lot of car break-ins) instead of bringing it into the house.

We live in the desert, and even though it’s not super hot out yet, it sure as hell got hotter than the 80-degree top limit you should store ink in. That was outside. Inside cars it’s even hotter.

The ink itself can get pretty hot. That’s not the problem. The seals, plastic bottles, and labeling are the problem. Things burst and crack here if you leave them in a car even for a short period of time without air conditioning. In the middle of summer, air conditioning can’t even keep up with the heat. It’s hard to get ice cream or ice home quickly enough even if you live close to the supermarket with the air conditioning blasting the whole way.

Let me just reiterate that the ink was at the PO box, which is air conditioned and relatively safe from theft, and I could’ve picked it up myself today and gone straight to the shop with it.

When I told him there was $5000 in heat sensitive ink in those boxes, the color drained from his face.

I thanked him for picking it up. But it probably didn’t come across as gratitude. Thankfully the bottles seem okay. I’m glad it’s not hotter outside yet.

do y’all notice a pattern with my family? like i’d probably be a wealthy person if it wasn’t for them? but instead i just scrape by while my family fucks it up making it look like i’m not as successful as i am and damn it that last bit makes me sound like a whiny privileged brat but i just want to rant i’ll stop now

the last week has been very draining mentally

I’ve had to have Discussions with Evan and Kim (piercing apprentice) about Kim’s behavior and how it should be dealt with because Evan is NOT good at being the tough guy (he lets her do stuff she shouldn’t and then thinks being pissy and telling her to not come in for a few days will make her realize she’s done something wrong without him explaining), but of course because people are sensitive, so I couldn’t just throw them both in the office and talk. Had to be Kim, then Evan, then Kim again, and Evan again. Ugh. Evan is super emotional, so he teared up more than once during the discussions.

That same day Ash had a meltdown. He doesn’t handle real-life stuff well since his accident, and he’s trying to get on disability, but when they told him he’d get $700 a month he flipped out because “how am I supposed to take care of my kids and me on $700 a month?!” I told him it’s a really good number, especially for someone who has NEVER paid taxes and is in his 20s. Yeah, it sucks that disability doesn’t cover living expenses, but would you rather have $700 a month or nothing? So I talked to him for quite a while about how to handle it, what to do, pointing out that he’ll still have his tattoo income and that’ll pay for living expenses, etc. He was crying at me when he first came in, but left with a smile on his face.

Next Ryan came in. He didn’t cry at me, but he needed reassurance on things and was doing the “what am I doing with my life?” thing and “why aren’t I more busy even though I don’t want to promote myself?!” thing AGAIN. So I talked with him for 1.5 hours.

Then one of my regular customers came in with a personal thing that’s been going on, and I guess I seemed like the person to vent to because he teared up and started telling me all about his shit too.

That was a couple days ago. Yesterday I had to talk to Kim and Evan again, and Evan cried again. Had another long talk with Ryan. Had a 15-minute talk with Ash because he wanted to tell me all the things he’s doing to smooth things over with the disability thing.

And then my family decides we need to have a shop meeting because they want us to start up a delivery service for the tattoo shops on the other side of the city. I mean it’s a really good idea because the only two supply shops out that way suck and people hate them, but damn all of us are so busy all the time and it’s just one more thing. A big thing.

The online store is getting busier all the time, especially now that I’ve made it so we can accept ANY kind of payment system instead of just P/ayPal.

So we’re going to get some coolers together and get Kat (a friend my cousin and I grew up with who is also helping us out with the social media thing because we all suck at being social) is going to start doing runs out to those areas.

I’m hoping we can keep up with demand, especially if shop owners start ordering from us because they’ll likely order huge amounts at a time.

Oh! And I mentioned a couple weeks ago I got distributorships from like four or five new places? Well I’ve landed another three!! I don’t know why these companies that have always been hard to get a hold of and wouldn’t give me distributorships in the past are changing their minds (maybe just continually bugging them shows I really want it?), but whatever it is, this is really cool.

Now I just have to get my uncle and his wife to stop spending so much money so I can put more money toward building up stock at the shop, especially from the new manufacturers I’m an official distributor for!

So lots of good and some bad things, very tiring things. Oh, and my lungs are doing better, but not quite good enough to do yard work. Tried to help my mom move some stuff around out back yesterday and had to sit down every few minutes because my lungs were burning :\

i gots a new game!!!

So I was whining at Ryan the other day because he always tells me how awesome gaming is when you’re high, but whenever Saturday night rolls around and I’m high, all I can do is watch TV, listen to music, or kinda scroll through Tumblr. I CAN’T GAME. Not that I suck at it, but I just can’t handle it.

I asked him why, and he said well maybe you’re getting too high, and I’m like TOO HIGH?! I see all these gamers online saying how high they get and how awesome gaming is. How can I be getting higher than them?!

So I told him how much I take and what I’m feeling. He said “yup you’re getting too high.” I was like “but I’m only taking TWO gummies! that’s 40 mg max of the milder strains.”

Apparently my tolerance is low, especially since I only do it once a week. He can take two gummies AND smoke a bowl and still can game, but if he takes more gummies or does the paste, he can’t game.

So last weekend I tried taking part of one gummy, gaming, and then taking the rest of the gummies before bed.

I WAS ABLE TO GAME AND IT WAS GLORIOUS ON MY BIG SCREEN NO WONDER GAMERS SAY YOU GOTTA TRY GAMING HIGH

So today I bought myself a new game to try out on Saturday night. If I can figure out how to stream to Twitch from my computer instead of my tablet I’ll do it Saturday night, but no promises. Even when I’m a little high, I still have trouble figuring things out.

I bought No Man’s Sky. It’s not a super popular game, but Ryan and I have very similar taste in games, and it’s one of his favorites when he’s high. It’s open world, which we both love.

It’s all downloaded and ready to go for Saturday night :)

 

buying drugs for my uncle, as one does

Charlie saw a documentary by a guy who gets cyclone migraines. I don’t know if you’ve ever heard of this, but... it’s beyond awful, and if they lasted any longer than the 3-5 hours they typically last, I don’t think anyone would survive them. Not that it kills you, but rather I don’t think people would want to continue living.

My uncle gets them every once in a while. The daith piercings cut WAY down on the frequency of them, and he doesn’t have a constant migraine anymore with the daiths, but every once in a while a cyclone migraine sneaks up on him.

The guy in the documentary discovered that taking mushrooms once every two months kept the cyclone migraines away completely. If he did it every three months, it was too long in between and he’d get a cyclone migraine.

So like the dork I am who has guys in my shop willing to get me ANYTHING (seriously they offer all the time and they always crack up when I say weed is the only recreational drug I’ve ever taken and even then I don’t even smoke it and it’s not technically recreation for me because I’m using it to reset my brain once a week), I asked Saul to get me some microdoses for Charlie.

I don’t know if Charlie will actually do it, but he seemed very interested when he was telling me about the documentary. If he doesn’t do it, I only wasted $20.

From what Saul says, the microdose should only last 4-6 hours, which is good because when I had Charlie try weed, it gave him a wicked migraine, he projectile vomited and dry heaved for hours, and it gave him the sweats. It also lasted 10 hours :\

We even tried giving him liquid morphine one time to see if it would stop the cyclone migraine or at least help it, but it made it even worse. Cyclone migraines are insane!

Anyway, Saul should be able to get it to me tomorrow and I’m going to see if Charlie is up for it. He’s a paranoid kind of person, so I’m hoping he won’t flip out on it. Saul claims you don’t get paranoid on it, but I don’t think he realizes how chill he is himself or how paranoid Charlie is :D

Saul wants me to try the mushrooms too. Both he and I have read that mushrooms really help schizophrenia. Just like other hallucinogens, they stop hallucinations in schizophrenics, and there have been some claims that even occasional use helps a lot of the other symptoms of schizophrenia too.

If I wasn’t doing as well as I am, I think I’d try it, but I’m too nervous it’ll fuck my head up and I’ll lose the level of mental health I currently have.

But at least I can get some for Charlie and see if it helps :)