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My First Prompt Fill!
Dec. 3rd, 2013 03:06 pmI just filled my first prompt for spnkink_meme.
I've never filled a prompt before, and I've never posted a fic of my own on LJ before, anonymously or under my LJ handle.
I posted one fic years ago for the Stargate fandom on an archive dedicated to SG1 and SGA, but after a couple of comments about how odd domestic discipline was, how it was strange that Jack and Daniel had that relationship and it wasn't sexual, and after some not-nice things said, I gave up posting.
There were a couple of people who complimented me, but the negative comments hit me really hard. I don't have thick skin when it comes to my writing.
I've written for as long as I can remember. In fact before I could even write myself, I'd tell my mom stories and she'd write them down for me. But when it comes to bad reactions and negative criticism, I don't handle it well.
But I love writing! So after years of reading anonymous fills at various LJ communities, the thought occurred to me that I should try it out. I don't know why I'd never thought of it before, but it just hit me a few weeks back that I could and should do it.
If people don't like what I've written, they'll have no idea who I am, and even if they bash me for it, I can write something else, post it, and they'll likely never know I wrote both things.
At least this is what I'm telling myself.
So I went through the prompts and picked a handful that I thought sounded interesting. I worked on it for a few days, then posted it just now. I'm nervous, but not near as nervous as I was when I posted with my own name years ago.
When I use my own name/my LJ handle, It feels like I'm ripping a piece of myself out and leaving it out for everyone to do what they please with it, and people can be very harsh. Posting anonymously didn't feel nearly as scary as that!
I hope the OP likes it, and I hope others do too!
I'm too nervous to post my fic at my journal, but maybe someday if I get good feedback and I feel comfortable with what I've written being associated with my name, then I'll post it here.
~Maya
(Crossposted from LJ)
I've never filled a prompt before, and I've never posted a fic of my own on LJ before, anonymously or under my LJ handle.
I posted one fic years ago for the Stargate fandom on an archive dedicated to SG1 and SGA, but after a couple of comments about how odd domestic discipline was, how it was strange that Jack and Daniel had that relationship and it wasn't sexual, and after some not-nice things said, I gave up posting.
There were a couple of people who complimented me, but the negative comments hit me really hard. I don't have thick skin when it comes to my writing.
I've written for as long as I can remember. In fact before I could even write myself, I'd tell my mom stories and she'd write them down for me. But when it comes to bad reactions and negative criticism, I don't handle it well.
But I love writing! So after years of reading anonymous fills at various LJ communities, the thought occurred to me that I should try it out. I don't know why I'd never thought of it before, but it just hit me a few weeks back that I could and should do it.
If people don't like what I've written, they'll have no idea who I am, and even if they bash me for it, I can write something else, post it, and they'll likely never know I wrote both things.
At least this is what I'm telling myself.
So I went through the prompts and picked a handful that I thought sounded interesting. I worked on it for a few days, then posted it just now. I'm nervous, but not near as nervous as I was when I posted with my own name years ago.
When I use my own name/my LJ handle, It feels like I'm ripping a piece of myself out and leaving it out for everyone to do what they please with it, and people can be very harsh. Posting anonymously didn't feel nearly as scary as that!
I hope the OP likes it, and I hope others do too!
I'm too nervous to post my fic at my journal, but maybe someday if I get good feedback and I feel comfortable with what I've written being associated with my name, then I'll post it here.
~Maya
(Crossposted from LJ)
