mayalaen | steroids suck

I knew the steroids would make me irritable, but I didn’t anticipate them making my hallucinations THIS much worse. They’re bad enough right now I’m not comfortable driving. Getting my period at the same time probably didn’t help.

I’m feeling wet/cold spots all over the carpet, hot and cold areas in the house, 3 of the rooms in the house smell like gas (don’t worry, I asked my mom to check and there’s no actual gas smell), there’s a clicking noise that won’t go away, I’ve got a guacamole-gone-bad taste in my mouth, a lot of the things I touch feel sticky, and even though I *know* there weren’t earthquakes here today (or ever where I live), the ground felt like it shifted a few times today and yesterday.

My mom had a seizure tonight just a few minutes after she started working on something for her boss, so I had to finish it. It’s almost 4am and I just finished. Got mom to bed about an hour ago. She’s pretty fuzzy, but the seizure was in the back of her head, which means it’s not going to hit her as hard. The ones she gets in her forehead area are the worst.

The steroids are also getting me stuck in this weird in-between area with sleep. I’m buzzed and don’t feel like sleeping at all, but if I can catch it just right and actually fall asleep, I conk out for a LONG time. I slept 9 hours yesterday.

My dad gets back from Nevada tomorrow, and my mom’s friend is bringing him home from the airport, then staying with us for a few days. Kinda sucks that there’s going to be more people in the house, but maybe she’ll drive me to and from the shop.

I’m tired-buzzed, so I should probably at least TRY to get some sleep :P