Tough it OutPairing:
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|| SPNKink-MemeFull List of Kinks: Sex pollen, PTSD, thoughts of and some talk of Hell, panic attack and flashback, fuck-or-die.Setting:
Toward the end of Season 5, but no specific time.Summary:
This is a prompt fill for the request of Dean/Cas, sex pollen, PTSD, flackbacks. Any point in canon: Dean and Cas get hit with sex pollen and need to fuck it out. Cas is still inexperienced (possibly a virgin), so Dean offers to bottom, to make it easier for him.
Unfortunately, Dean's has a whole lot of really awful memories when it comes to sex with other guys (e.g. Alastair) and Cas' accidental roughness (due to the pollen-induced urgency) triggers a flashback. They have no choice but go through with things anyway, though.
Lots of love for badly shaken Dean trying to pretend nothing's wrong and tough it out until he just can't anymore, and overwhelmed, concerned Cas doing the best he can to help and be gentle.
No naive/idiot!Cas, please. He knows what sex is and how it works (and why Dean is freaking out), he just doesn't have any hands-on experience and the pollen clouding his brain doesn't help.( Tough it Out )